IF YOU ALREADY PAY THE PRICE THEN YOU DON'T NEED AN EXPOSURE ANYMORE

Don't try so hard, don't try to look unnatural, if you already paid the price, if you really work hard and make yourself better than you don't need an exposure anymore, you don't need their appreciation, it's their fault if the can't love you, it's their fault if they can't see your vision. You already give everything you have, you push yourself to the limits, what do you need appreciation for? what do you need reward for? you already prove yourself to yourself, you already give your best. There is nothing left to prove anymore.

Your work will be felt in the right time, your talents and skills will be exposed, just keep working and don't be scared to wait, don't be scared to wait forever. If forever is what it takes then take it.

If you really know in yourself that you already give everything you have then make peace with yourself. Don't try so hard anymore, stop begging for their appreciation, stop looking for their praises and positive comments, stop looking for their money. You already work so hard... that is enough, that is already the reward for yourself.