Many people thought that life is suppose to be perfect and that is their biggest mistake, that's what makes them suffer even more. If you will just accept that life is not perfect at all then you will become happier and the stress will be lessen. Stress keeps getting stronger because you thought that everything should be in perfect place, that kind of mindset makes you see the imperfections of life even more. You have to embrace chaos and disorder, welcome the responsibilities and challenges in your life. It is what it is, if it's hard so be it and never complain even just for once. You are still in control here, you are in control in one thing that is very powerful and truly yours and that is your mind. Your mind is everything, make it stronger and you will become powerful. But how can you make it stronger? by facing challenges and embracing the journey, creating your own path and not being afraid to fail and suffer.
forget the past and just keep going
Past is a bullshit drama, it will never give you anything, it will never give you something. Be fast in working, don't look for someone or something to have before you start, don't look for a perfect situation or timing, go to war alone, go to war even if you don't have ammunition and your courage will be doubled. Keep moving forward as much as you can, just do it. all you have to do is take the first step and follow through, that's it, it's too simple yet you can't do it because you're trying to look cute, you're being soft. If you don't want to feel depressed and weak you need to force yourself to do something positive that will put your life on a better place. Past is past, forget it and move on, there is nothing you can do about it. Focus on what you can control and do something that will give you a much better life. Deal with the pain, deal with the struggle, if it's hard so be it. You don't need to feel sorry or yourself, stop looking for comfort because only weak men do that. You need to look for harder situations and understand that it is the path to greatness and power.
You can do something even if you are feeling bad
You can always take the first step and follow through. Force yourself, stop being a chicken, stop being a lazy coward. Use your life, make yourself useful and forget everything that is making you stuck even more. You will become stuck forever when you're hesitating and thinking too much about the future. You will only get to the next level if you will master the ability to push yourself even if you don't want to do something. Stat it now and finish it, endure the boredom, endure the pain and power through.