You want to win but you don't even want to get sweaty, you don't want to lose but you are so focused on your fears, you don't even have the initiative to at least move your hands and feet or at least talk to just change a different outcome.
What do you really want in life?
You wanted to win? you wanted to become big and successful? then what is the freezing of your body and brain all about? what is the laziness all about? don't make excuses if you want success, as simple as that.
Become scared but still move, don't be immobilized by fear, fear is a liar, fear is not real. Fear is making you the person you don't want to be. So move now while it's not too late, move now even if you can't move your body, move now even if it feels like you're going to die if you move.
So just decide if you're going to move or not, if not then don't expect to win, don't expect to become successful, as easy as that. You only have the right to expect winning if you are moving.
Because you are only punishing yourself if you wanted to win but you don't want to do something.
Accept that you already lost if you decided not to move, accept that you already won once you take the first step.